It's midnight, I'm drunk and the kids'll be up in 6 hours. I don't think I wanted to grow up. Mim, did you mean to grow up?

Do most people know what they want in life?

I've been reading some amazing bulshit about what philosophers have believed the self to be. It's mostly ridiculous. If you want a laugh, go look at Locke's account of personal identity. It's completelty insane. Unfortunately you may find strong resonances with our legal system...

Oh well, according to Locke, this isn't me anyway, because odds are i won't remember this in the morning....

Well that pregnancy didn't last long, had a miscarriage at 5 weeks. Apparently even numbered pregnancies don't work for me. !.!. Oh well...

It was very unpleasant actually. My mother kindly pointed out that in the old days I wouldn't have known I was pregnant and would have thought it was a week late period. Hmmm... well I reckon the agonising pain and projectile vomiting would have given it away, but what would I know?

I've been single parenting for 2 weeks with hubby away. He's away for another 5 days.... I am really over this, it is very exhausting. Not to mention the fact that I am not qualified to live on my own. This morning I had to ring a friend at 6:50am (she has kids, she was awake) to come and rescue me because there was an enormous spider in the bathroom. I noticed it when I was in the shower, and it was next to the door. Since I am a teensy weensy bit arachniphobic, I had to climb out the window to get out of the bathroom (towel clad, to add to the fun). Thank the gods I was too tired to remember to lock the verandah doors last night...

Anyway, I couldn't even vacuum it up, I tried, but I just froze and couldn't do it. It's pathetic. I know it is just an 8 legged bug, but... I guess that's why they call it a phobia...

So come on Thursday when my big strong man type comes home. Sad, I know, but there you go.