I have a something in my right breast. I know this, because they found a something 3 months ago and told me to come back for a followup. And then, today when I came back for said followup, they chose to only ultrasound the right breast. From this I conclude that the something is still there. In addition, it took a lot less time to locate the something this time, which probably means it's bigger, but not necessarily, I suppose.
This is all I know, because despite the fact that several people looked at all the pictures they took of me, no-one told me anything about what they saw. Why?
I can't pick up the results now until Thursday next week, since we are going away. In all likelihood, it's no big deal, but I can't actually know that until someone tells me what they saw.
There is something exceedingly arrogant about this. Why can't they tell me what they are seeing? They might be wrong, but that's ok, as long as they tell me what they can and can't glean so far, that's all I need. Is it because the medical profession needs to maintain an air of infallibility? Is it because they think I am too stupid to understand an indecisive answer? I would much rather be privy to the thought processes and reasoning that is going on. Then I can make sensible estimates of the goodness or badness of the news and at least have some clue as to whether there is anything to worry about. I will almost certainly not over-ride the medical professional's conclusions, but at least I will feel like I exist.